Forced Ambidexterity

I'm a student of

compulsory ambidexterity

Training myself to

push pencils

with one hand

and push myself

deeper into the floor

with the other

To pick at old wounds

while

laying the foundations

for new ones

Or

wave goodbye and hello

at the

same time

While one hand

struggles to throw my notebook

into the lake

the other shoves it eagerly

into my chest cavity

I end up merely

a water-logged body

suspended in a collage

of soggy paper

Bleh....

People are addicted to the idea that things happen for a reason , ingrained since infancy it's the first rule of civilized behavior take all the blame you can handle there's plenty to go around……. the polar ice cap is melting cause your to lazy to ride a bike , girls are hitting puberty at ten cause of growth hormones in food , the average IQ is plummeting cause so many stupid people have kids , your kid will take a bullet before graduating high school cause movies are too violent….

... cause and effect..

We cling to this way of thinking ... because despite all the evidence to the contrary….. we need to believe in forcing the world into making sense .... to the frail minded this rationality can bring considerable comfort …..because if there are reasons for everything ... there must be a reason for you…..

Now imagine if there was no reason….. every step you took was never leading you anywhere…… just THINK and let it sink ....I write this not out of any type of divine intervention or religious whim …. But out of a puzzle that keeps scratching at the back of my mind …. Just what if ? …

Dead Meat

Where did our enthusiasm go?
How did the detachment grow?
We've been left to it
We're expected to know
how to hastily grow
through layers of waste and a cruel film of sleet
through mornings of hard-pressed obscurities
through evenings of insistent deceit
all while learning to stumble
along cracked concrete
We're feeble and ambitious
We're dead meat

Recess Rendezvous

Anyone that knows me, knows I don't see dreams when I sleep or just don't remember them, maybe its cause I day dream half the time I'm awake.

Reminisce of a simpler time

Little girls playing school yard games

I'd chase you around the monkey bars

In a world where we lived for recess

And puppy crushes

This was life

Where we cut out paper hearts

And you hop scotched through my head

Waiting for that bell to ring again

To chase you around the swings

But I gave up and there you sat

Sitting right next to me

You looked at me and smiled

Never once did we say a word

We just sat there... pumping our legs

to the heavens

Higher and higher we swung

School bells rang again

And our thirty minutes of

Beautiful Silence was through

With puppy dog crushes and cooties

And fast beating juvenile hearts...

This was love

Happiness... Is Not a Fish.... Maybe a Smile

Sitting alone,
quiet and silent
in darkness,
I ask myself,

What is happiness?

The answer
refuses me,
unrelentingly,
I pursue
only the shadows.

Fallen and slain,
Another day arrived
Caught by surprise,
I faintly heard

Those words
gained my attention,
for unknown reasons.

Words,
of a mystical kind,
I want
to see again

Something so simple
it could only be as such,
What you taught me
was truth from the start,

Happiness, is just
a smile.

Listening to Our Lady Peace -  awesome band check em out if your into Indie/Alternative

Snap Shot

I imagine you waited on the moon to come out,
you're just one of those people who would love to doubt.

Because fate wasn't, seeing it your way,
yearning for truth, eyes muted gray.

Possibly, my picture is all wrong,
maybe you're laughing, still going strong.

But for the dark haired boy, who moved last August
going strong seems a twisted way to be remembered.

Sad Eyes

I love eyes, they tell tales ..... different from another.

The eye sees a thing more clearly in dreams than the imagination awake.
-Leonardo da Vinci

He who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead; his eyes are closed.

-Albert Einstein

 

 

 

 

 

 

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True Colors - Glee

~You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh, I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And darkness still inside you
Make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors ~

Ugly Little Flower

Flowers on sunrise, glistening grey
Holding heat on purpose, if it may
Colorless. Odorless. With nothing to say
But basking, and breathing in such a way

Lonely old hillside, home to its heart
No lilac stain on my petals, no art
So tender and frail, at this young start
Living in your warmth, falling apart

Treasure now, and hold dear
Before leaves wilt and can no longer hear
Share with me your heat and hold me near
Without your sunlight, I'm living in fear

Resurrection

Longing for resurrection
Though it questions my sanity.
Emptiness,
A hole left seedless.
Truth be told,
Ghost in a life of beings,
Exist
Pulsate
Breath
No bits of life to resurrect.
My eyes, hide nothing.
Though I hide them.
As I long to be
See

If you've given up on love listen to this

I'm generally a cold person , but this hit a note
give it a venture? its a nice listen. You Won't Regret It

If I Only Had A Brain....

Oh if i only had a brain...

......where are u Wizard

The Best Interracial Sex

Oh Death: the worlds invention to unify and diminish racial discrimination  

Oh Death: bringing black n white together and make em so delicious

Oh Death: don't u love Oreos

For the living....

Warn our world
About humanity
War our world
Before it’s gone
What doesn’t kill me
Makes me stronger
And I’m not sure
I can hold on
When you know the truth
Then you live the truth
When you live the truth
Then you know its true
Believe in now
Before it’s gone
You’re so damn close
Try to hold on
You should probably
Take what you can get
But don’t blame the man hiding up the stairs
Live like you’re dying
Keep it pure but
Don’t stop trying
Just to be sure
For the love of the game
Let the games begin
Say “I can”
And then dare to live

Time Is on My Side

why am I in such a hurry to grow up?

You know life is like a train!

It's bearing down on you, and guess what?

It's gonna hit you!

So you can either start running when it's far off in the distance.

or you can pull up a chair, crack open a beer, and just watch it come!

*sits*

Beer anyone?

Screams

Sleep that was supposed to provide temporary relief
Has now become a dreamscape of unfathomable horror
Everyday is a replay of the same scenario
Wake up knowing this day will be torture

When your own thoughts were all you could turn to
Now becomes the one thing you try to escape from

Every fiber of your being has been burned to the core
Not caring if it knocks the last breath out of you

You beg someone to scream
Please, just scream
So you know your not alone

Quote.....Unquote (2)

A: gosh
A: i feel like a monster
A: sometimes
L: haha
A: that is
L: we all are
L: monsters
L: in denial

L: at-least we know

The Beatles - All You Need Is Love

There's nothing you can do that can't be done.

Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.

Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game.

It's easy.

Nothing you can make that can't be made.

No one you can save that can't be saved.

Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time.

It's easy.

All you need is love.

Don't

Don't cry, just laugh
Don't runaway, just stay
Don't teach, just learn
Don't hate, just love
Don't hide, just seek.

Cause if you don't , you might just end up....like me

Three Days Grace - Life Starts Now

.........Life Starts (when you want it to).........

Relax